Blushing Bride.

This is not the dress. I got the dress but this is not the one. I can see all the emails from people saying that "Aaron is going to see the dress".. and our relationship is going to be doomed, so NO ONE PANIC. This isn't the dress. This one was pretty but it didn't make the cut. I think it makes me look a little bit short. Zoe and I together is the reason I chose to include this photo, and because I wanted to update everyone on the wedding plans.

I am so excited about the wedding! I am soooo over the top excited! I have the dress, the honeymoon is booked! We are getting married at the golf course by my work, and the reception will be in their banquet hall. We have some choices about the food, all chicken choices. We will probably decide that within the next few weeks. Our colors will be pink and chocolate. I have so many ideas about the cake. It's my dream to have like the most glorious Martha Stewart wedding, and while staying within our budget, it looks like it will be really close. And Zoe will be my little maid of honor. She is tickled pink about that.
Aaron will have Sid as his best man. Our other attendants will be Jennifer, Lacey, Nicole and Bridget on my side. Kayla, Ashley, and McKenzie will be flower girls. Aaron will have Ryan, Robert, Kyle and Lonnie on his side. Can you imagine Sid and Aaron looking so handsome in their tuxedos with the chocolate ties and the pink hydrangea boutineers.
Oh! That reminds me, the flowers will be pink hydrangeas with pink roses. Very full heads on the hydrangeas cut the cost dramatically, then just Zoe and I will have roses inner mixed.
I need to buy Aaron's ring. I wanna get something engraved inside to surprise him, but I am not sure what yet.
Everyone has told me that nothing will go as planned at the wedding and I can tell you right now that I am not going to be one of those horrid Bridzilla's everyone talks about. There is one goal for that day, and that will happen not matter what else goes on. I love Aaron so much and am looking so forward to being the kind of wife God has intended me to be. I couldn't imagine my life without Aaron in it. I almost feel like we share a heart already, and cannot wait for our souls to become one after we are married.

Our relationship has been blessed by our Lord, Jesus Christ. About three years ago, I prayed for God to bring a man into my life that would be the perfect husband for me and the perfect dad for the kids. I was very specific in what I asked for. Someone with intelligence, a gentle soul, yet strong and protective, who would love God with all his heart, and love us so completely for who we are. And I met Aaron almost immedialty after that. We didn't start dating right away, but I can say that we noticed each other, and became friends first. When we did start dating, it didn't take long at all for me to realize God had heard me and answered my prayer in a huge way! What a great comfort it is to know that we have God on our side. When we do things the way God wants us to, he will continue to bless us. I cannot say enough good things about Aaron! He makes me want to be a better person, and give, give, give to him. He is so deserving of the best kind of life, and with prayer, and trust in God's plan, I will be the perfect person to give it to him. If he knew how hard I strive to make him happy.

To put it simply, I cannot wait to be his wife. And he my husband.

Silver Lining.

Yesterday started raunchy! The Lord was really testing me on patience yesterday and I can tell you I barely passed. I woke up feeling stiff and achy- you know like a hangover or the flu type feeling. My head was throbbing, and I was running late, so no coffee. Not a good thing for this mama. I have to have my coffee.
I am not kidding about that. I will let you in on a little secret of mine. One of my guilty pleasures is to get up at 6 in the morning, get me a cup of coffee, open the blinds, so I can watch the sun come up from my snuggly spot on the couch, turn on the news and sip away. It is just about may favorite time of day. Aaron doesn't drink coffee and I don't think he gets this, but it truly is an important part of my day.
So I missed it. I overslept, woke up hurting, and I missed my coffee time. Bad news. We got out the door a smidge later than usual. And what a different that makes. I dropped Sid and Zoe off for school with minutes to spare. Sid's third grade class is all the way in the back of the school and he was late. Not happy.
Then as soon as I got to work, I got a phone call from an unhappy applicant who had given me a check to hold, but I put it through to be deposited, now her account is in turmoil.
Work was rushed, chaotic, I felt like I didn't connect with anyone, no one wanted an apartment from me, I promise you that. I was grumpy.

But, with prayer, my day turned. Aaron emailed me that he would bring home the bacon (ie, cereal, milk, and bread) so I wouldn't have to. Then soccer practice got canceled, which was a guilty relief, but I am just sooo tired. We got home with to do list and tackled em all! Oh and Sid learned how to ride his bike! Praises! That kid needed this so much! He can be real hard on himself. But to accomplish something like this with very little help! I got so many pictures I wanted to post on this blog, but that will have to wait. Way to go SID!

Zoe was bummed about him learning before her, but I did my best to explain that he is older and that he will do lots of things first. I promised her that she will get to shave her legs first, she laughed, thought for a minute and then scrunched up her nose.

"Oh mom! Grooossss!!" I smiled at her. She won't think it's gross one day, but I'm kinda glad she does for now.

O Praise Him.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IpVsF4W8V2Y

This video was played at church on Saturday night when Aaron was baptized, and at first I thought the video was wierd, but by the end, I wasnted to stand up and cheer for that guy. I can't quit thinking about that video. We have all been there at that moment of worship where we feel like getting down on our knees, but most of don't display that outward worship. I can't explain it. It reminded me of Aaron and what he was going through that night, renewing his relationship with God and how special each and every relationship with God is. The kids saw the video and Aaron get baptized and I think bout how all that moved their hearts and affected them.

God is in everything around us.
God is good.

Things have been so amazing. The kids and I have been spending so much quality time together. Yesterday I tried to teach them both at the same time how to ride their bikes with out trainging wheels. I know, I know. 7 and 8 is a little old, but hey, I'm slowing down remember! There learning styles are so different and Zoe is really trying hard and Sid is frusterated and I'm keeping my cool. It was great. Great bonding! I realized I am not a very patient teacher, and bless there hearts, they tried so hard. Sid almost got it, before crashing and deciding bike riding is not for him.

"Only loosers ride bikes,"he said as he threw his bike across the parking lot.

I had to muffle my smile. He is so strong and so stubborn. I helped him pick up his bike and he looked around to see if anyone was around, then burried his head right under my chest and sobbed. It broke my heart. I hugged him back! We put the bikes up and went inside for some pumpkin cookies and snuggled on the couch. Some people may think this mama is to soft with her boy, and maybe I am. But he went to bed with a smile on his face, and told me he would try again tommorow.

Zoe woke up this morning and told me she woke herself up because in her dream she was singing 'Do you know the Muffin Man'. How precious is she. I am one blessed mama!